i've been afraid of change

building my life around him seemed like a good idea at the time. nothing could've prepared me for this. wouldn't have believed you if you told me i would wake up crying. haven't accepted it yet, but at the same time i do understand that this is happening.

where do i go from here?

I never thought I'd be
Lying here without you by my side
It seems unreal to me that
The life you promised was a lie
You made it look so easy
Making love into memories
I guess you got what you wanted
But what about me

Without you
I'm not okay
Without you
I've lost my way

Somebody tell my head
To try to tell my heart
That I'm better off
Without you

from this i get a fresh start. and i am looking forward to that... i have to.