you needed me

dear isla,

last saturday was a busy day for our little family. i attended a friend's baby shower that afternoon then came home to find your daddy dressing you up to attend another couples' shower in mckinney. on the way to the second shower we had to make a quick stop at our real estate agent's house. we are currently in the process of selling the house you came home to and buying the house you will grow up in. there was some paperwork to sign and it just so happened to be her birthday so we stopped by the grocery store on the way to buy her flowers and get a gift bag for the baby shower gift.

after leaving the real estate agent's house we drove almost an hour to the baby shower where you were passed around and admired. driving home we decided to stop by another friend's birthday party and say hello to everyone. it was at this point that you decided you had had enough.

we made it home, changed you, fed you and attempted to put you to bed. you cried and cried. your day had just been too full. we tried to do too much. and you let us know.

i decided to rock you in the glider hoping to console you. you cried for a while, then settled down and fell to sleep. i sat there holding your tiny body in my arms. my face and your face nestled together. the tears streaming down your face migrating to mine. as you calmed down and began to get drowsy i realized how much you needed me. it brought tears to my eyes to realize that won't always be the case.

you will grow and mature into a capable young woman. you will handle yourself. you won't always need your mama the way you did that night in the glider. and that makes my heart ache.

but i wouldn't have it any other way.

i love you baby girl.

love,
your mama