last night i stared at my reflection in the bathroom mirror and cried for what seemed like an hour, but was probably more like 2 minutes. i don't know why i was crying, and i still don't. i do know that i felt better after i journaled, talked to my bff, and got a special goodnight hug.every once in awhile i have a day or two where i feel unmotivated, depressed, and hopeless. i hate those days. feeling out of control is not something i handle well. sometimes i lash out at those closest to me, sometimes i am silent, and sometimes i cry in front of the mirror frozen in place. these days scare me.
i think this video would've helped last night.
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I think we all go thru that at times, I know I do! I always feel a bit like that during the holidays too. Treat yourself with kindness and respect and just know that those feelings will pass and the days will get better!! Warm hugs and much love sent your way! xxoo :)
@cathi: thanks. your kind words are much appreciated. i made it through that day and now i feel wonderful again. it's just hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when your actually in the tunnel.
crying for no reason is my forte! keep your chin up, buttercup.
do you journal every time you feel like that? i used to think i was psycho, practically bipolar, until i realized that my journal had these similar depressed entries on a regular basis. I discovered it was a really whacked hormone imbalance and have been much more stable after taking the right b/c. gosh, being a woman sure sucks sometimes. glad you are out of the funk :)
@cortney: i don't feel so alone. in my heart i know i'm not the only one who does this... but, when it's happening i can't stop thinking "no one has ever been this ridiculous, i must be crazy!" hahah.
@anna: i try to journal each night. sometimes i miss, but most nights i do. isn't it great to go back in your journal and figure those things out? my bc helps most of the time, but i find that when it is the "off" week i go insane! do you have the same problem?
marli - you are brave and beautiful. WIDLY talented. AND successful at everything you seem to do --> while doing ALL of that you also manage to be a kind and genuine human being. i (with much much sincerity) adore the person you are... i am glad you are feeling much better and by gosh i have myself a really good (ugly) cry every once in a while and the release is so very helpful. miss you.
@ Marli - Girl, I am with you on this. It feels good to cry. It has been a tough week and I haven't cried or journal'ed. I a sending you hugs even though you said you are okay now :)
@Anna - What BC are you on, may I ask? I got off of it b/c of health/depression issues, but I still don't feel myself...
mar, i love you. i do this too and know exactly how you feel. how its so hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when you are actually in it and you feel so silly crying to yourself, shaking your head, talking outloud saying "stop crying," but you just cant. it happens. its healty. i love you and you are never alone. miss you terribly. Spy
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