it's been a little while since i had one of those days. you know the ones. where nothing seems to go right. nothing makes you happy. you can't find a reason to smile. and you either hold it all inside or let it all out on the wrong person. i had one of those days today.currently training for my first half marathon. been running on my own for about 6 years now, and finally decided that i could do more. since starting this training i have enjoyed every minute of it. the triumphs, the pain, the laughter, the sweat, the trips, the conversation, the new friends, the miles being added weekly. my lifestyle has been altered a little bit, but for the better. i am very proud of myself. yesterday we did eleven miles. i've never done that before. but, i finished with my pace group and i was elated. then the pain started emerging as i went about the rest of my day. i iced, elevated, rested for a little while, and tried to put at little weight on it as i could. this morning it felt worse. so i tried the RICE (rest, ice, compression, elevation) method again. but, i needed groceries, and lunch, and advil. so i had to walk on it, and i was not happy about it. i needed someone else to get those things for me and i have no one. of course i have lots of wonderful friends and family who probably would've gotten those things for me... but i didn't want to ask. i wanted to have a man in my life who i could turn to and ask for help. i wanted someone to comfort me and tell me that i could just relax, put my injured foot up and he would take care of the rest. but, i don't have that. and i was angry about it. i almost cried walking out the door, and in the produce section, and as i was loading my car. then i was told that i needed to stop running for a little while and let it heal. and i just lost it. i cried because someone told me i shouldn't run. the thought of not finishing this training that i've been doing for eleven weeks or not running these half marathons just killed me. i have to do this. i can't imagine not.
i don't have a significant other like all my friends. but, i do have this training. i am passionate about it. i love it. and i won't give up.
that was me being whiney. i'm done. tomorrow will be a wonderful day.
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3 comments:
oh marli......i am so sorry. the worst of days are there to help you appreciate the best of them. take care of yourself.
marli - we all have those days...I hope your tomorrows are better!
I hope you can continue your training also!
marli- I'm sorry girl..we all have those days just rest that foot of yours and you will be better in no time! I believe in you
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